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You get one shot at this....take it. If you decide later to walk away on your terms then do it, but don't walk away now. You've described a situation I've heard many times before. Nobody is going to serve it up on a platter and hand it to you. Finding a college baseball program is hard work and it gets even harder to get playing time once you find a team. Opportunities are out there, you just have to find them. Get some help from your travel coach, or baseball people that you know.
Good luck!