Shep,
Thank you for taking the time to respond.
More importantly, it is great to hear the realization you have made and the way you are changing and remaking yourself as a pitcher.
With that said, do you really feel ST with a MLB team is the place to start? You have been in them once so you know the process. I think you have to be brutally honest with yourself.
If you are truly ready, and can get a chance with a team and then get a reasonable chance and look in ST, that would be great. But we both know those are not adult league hitters.
My bottom line view is you have made a great start by reshaping who you are as a pitcher. That took time.
Proving you have done it so everyone will now see different results is also likely to be a proving yourself process every single outing.
As the experience with the Phillies shows, ST and Mlb/Milb is a numbers game and you just don't get many chances in those 28 or so days of ST.
Indy ball is going to provide a lot more chances and stability to prove you can get guys out and force them to hit your pitch, no matter what the count.
Patience might be what is needed.