Oh man, it's been a while since I've been on here

Couldn't remember my old password, but I went by the name of "Mr.3000". Anyway, I decided to venture in here to see how folks here are still doing. I think the last time I was in here was like 2 years ago, when I was still trying to get into pro ball. I also came in here to let ppl know why I didn't make it and that is this:

-Not enough practice. I was too lazy and didn't spend enough of my spare time practicing

-Not practicing right. What I mean by this is that I was still trying to find a good swing and running and fielding technique, so I wasn't getting enough repititions of good techniques that would develop into sound natural fundamental skills. Of course if I would have practice enough I might have been able to develop such skills.

-Psychological issues. This was the major reason why I couldn't cut it. I was severely depressed, had no friends, wasn't brought up well by my parents, and was underdeveloped socially. I couldn't concentrate well enough in practice and in games because of this. I was more concerned about my own well-being than playing ball properly...which was actually the right thing to do, other wise I probably wouldn't even be alive today. There are more important things in life than baseball, and when personal issues are too many to handle, you probably won't have a chance at becoming a good ballplayer. There were too many things going on in my head that prevented me from thinking like a ballplayer and concentrating. Since I had few social skills I couldn't make friends-meaning I had no one to practice with, save my dad who had little time for that. Neither could I communicate with my teammates that well.For those players who grew up in better households, you're real lucky. Also, since I was too concerned with my mental health I wasn't passionate enough for baseball. Baseball was more of an obsession, something to cling on to for the sake of living. It wasn't a sport or a game to me. It was too serious and not enough fun.

-Not enough baseball smarts. I didn't "think baseball". During games and practice I didn't have that baseball mentality, you know, like the kind that scouts and good coaches have. I didn't have enough baseball knowledge. I couldn't look at a pitcher and think "short arm, slinging action, 3/4 curve, hides ball well, etc.". I think my mentality was more of a baseball video game mentality, not a serious player's mentality. I think i have a much better mentality know, since I've been reading a lot of scouting reports in my spare time know. In fact, I would recommend that young players read as many scouting reports and articles that talk about baseball smarts in order to develop that mentality. Speaking of which, are there any scouts on this forum? I have some questions about scouting that I'm curious about. Reading scouting reports and stuff like that has become an interest of mine now.