I definitely agree with all the responses. My aspirations right now don't really include pro ball, and I'm not sure they ever will unless something drastically changes. Over these past few months I've started to realize that division really doesn't matter if I don't want to go pro. And as adbono said, there's no point in being unrealistic and trying to play with people who don't have the same goals as you. I think I've been thinking pretty realistically about where I could end up, and I definitely know that P5 would probably not be the place for me. I've pretty much been asking about D1 because I know that Ivies and D3 don't give athletic scholarships, and I was thinking maybe if I went to a mid-major I might be able to get some money. I'm still very interested in HA D1, though. Also, it takes a while to get over the "d1 or bust" mindset but I think that I'm past it. I pretty much just want to have fun while competing at a level where I could get solid playing time for 3 or 4 years.
I know someone asked if the grades match, and they definitely do--they would probably reflect an act score higher than 30 because I didn't study for the act. Also, I appreciate everyone recommending juco, but my goals in college probably wouldn't realistically align with that.
In regards to pitching experience, I do have experience playing against people older than me, but I haven't pitched above 18u. I've played on an 18u showcase team in smaller tournaments since I was 14 (I'm 16 now). I've also pitched in the highest high school baseball classification in my state since I was 14. I have great control of my fastball and can hit spots well in game situations. My change up is pretty good as well. However, my curveball is more of a get-me-over pitch and needs work.
as a side note, over the past few hours I reached out to 4 Ivy schools. 2 have already responded and seem very interested so thank you for the advice to branch out.