OK ENOUGH ALREADY! STOP IT! I GIVE UP!I am shocked by the response here. All you people taking the time to post so many nice things… Even more have taken the time to email and PM. I really can’t believe it. Most of the emails being from people who were nice and supportive and a few with tough messages from friends who care, saying things like this…
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Now you've committed the ultimate toe stepping, you've told us you're taking your bat and ball and going home.
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I know you've done a lot for this message board, the people here, the game of baseball. You are in a unique position, with both your expertise and your company to continue to bring change and help like no other person. Imagine being the smartest person in the world, and instead of trying to cure cancer, you do crossword puzzles. It wouldn't be fair or the right thing to do.
At first I was PO’d and replied something about… the only thing that matters to me is my reputation. Then I got this email back from that person.
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Jerry,
That's where I believe your perspective is skewed...I don't think your reputation has ever been in jeapordy. The bigger PG becomes, the more people will question all aspects of what's going on, simply because there will be more people aware and watching every day.
Having thought I was always a good listener and knowing this person cares, this caused me to think… read between the lines, maybe!
First of all, sometimes people just change what they do, even when it comes to their habits. HSBBW had become a habit for me and many others here. (not a bad habit, at all) I was involved because I enjoyed it, not to advertise or make money. I knew it was creating some business for PG, but people will have to believe the time consumed could have been used for other very worthwhile things and I never came here to market anything.
Everyone here should be able to understand that this site is very addictive (in a good way). So sometimes people just change what they do, their habits. I didn’t think taking my bat and ball and going home was an appropriate analogy. When I quit smoking many years ago, those cigarettes never said... You are just taking your bat and ball and going home. I know… that is a terrible analogy.
Also, I thought the analogy about being the smartest person, curing cancer, and doing crossword puzzles, was being unfair and didn’t make much sense. I’m not very smart about anything. I just have lots of experience when it comes to certain things. I can give information, but not good at giving someone advice when experience has taught me that sometimes that the most well meant advice you might give someone could turn out to be the worst possible advice for that individual. So after thinking about all this, realizing the good intent involved, I decided that, that email didn’t bother me too much.
However after replying, mentioning the reputation thing, the second email from this poster really did get me to thinking.
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Jerry,
That's where I believe your perspective is skewed...I don't think your reputation has ever been in jeapordy. The bigger PG becomes, the more people will question all aspects of what's going on, simply because there will be more people aware and watching every day.
It is true that I am obsessed with this reputation thing. Not reputation regarding other things, just baseball. This is what creates the need for honesty, loyalty and all that good stuff. Anytime I feel my reputation is being put to a test, I get very upset. That is because of going to great lengths in order to protect it. Have often told people we are not perfect, I tell all our people… You will make lots of mistakes… Just NEVER make a mistake on purpose!!!
Anyway, this second email really got me to thinking. It’s always seemed impossible for me to separate Perfect Game Inc. (the business) from Jerry Ford (the person). For the longest time I never thought about the fact that PG had become much larger than I. In fact, it has become a monster of sorts that no one man can "totally" control or be responsible for everything that takes place. When we started it was different, I felt like I had to be in control of every little thing. Now days, I just feel like a part of PG, rather than being PG. Guess I forget that at times.
That email made me realize. That there is Perfect Game and then there is me. It is difficult to separate that most of the time, but I don’t want to go to the grave and only be remembered as the guy who started Perfect Game. Perfect Game does not have to dictate who I am. I'm much older than Perfect Game. Maybe I do take things too personally?
I’d like to thank that person for that very important reminder.
One of the best things that happened, was I got a very nice PM from “tired of this”. He is not only a great baseball coach, he is a great person who just cares a lot. I already knew that because of what "justbaseball" emailed me. Once I realized his post was his true feelings and not just another agenda of some type, there was no problem at all. We need people like this highly regarded coach posting his thoughts on here.
This thread has been very embarrassing. I apologize for starting all this. I can’t believe the response. I tried to answer all the emails and PMs but I’m not sure if I got them all. The support makes me feel great, have to admit that. I’ve read each and every one and can’t thank you all enough. I’m sure that many others who haven’t logged on for awhile would also say some nice things, but this is getting a bit old. I didn’t expect this. I almost wish someone would say something bad now! Just kidding!
OK, maybe we can move on to more important topics, rather than talking about some old **** that got his feelings hurt. Next time I feel like leaving, think it will happen without any big announcement… Like many others who have sailed into the sunset without any fanfare!
You have all got to me in a big way. I can’t leave yet. Somewhere in between what many have said here and the things said on some of the posts that are not so flattering… Is the truth! There is nothing special about me that isn’t equally special about all you people.
D (Shortstopmom’s son)… You didn’t have to do that, but thanks! It means a lot. I’m so glad I got a chance to know you. Please don’t ever stop getting better. No baseball player ever reaches his “full” potential, some just come a lot closer than others.
I could go on forever, I can’t thank you people enough. What else can I say. I’ve been very humbled by all of this.
I’m out of here… Not for good this time. Sorry to start all of this. And please!!! Don’t think that you ever need to stick up for me or PG every time a negative post appears. That would just get boring. A little action and controversy is what keeps everyone interested. I used to love to read the threads where everyone started arguing and fighting. Found out that they're more fun to watch from the outside than being involved.
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